20 Week Update & Dealing With Mom Guilt – Second Pregnancy

20 weeks!? I’m halfway through this pregnancy and it doesn’t seem real. Of course I’m a little late on getting this blog out but I’m done being hard on myself about it lol We had a busy weekend with family that came down from NY! Peyton got to play with her cousins and she had a blast!

I feel like it’s so much harder to do these pregnancy updates this time around. I’m so busy and I feel like the weeks are a blur. Symptoms have been minimal lately. I’ve just been having some back pain and some of my usual neck tension from my TMJ issues. I have PT tomorrow so that’ll help 🙂 I’ve also started some more structured preschool for Peyton. It’s keeping us both busy and she’s learning so much already! This girl is like a sponge.

I feel like it’s time to get a little real. I’ve been feeling some major mom guilt. I know I shouldn’t, but I have been. I feel like I can’t enjoy this pregnancy as much because, honestly, sometimes I forget I’m pregnant. I have been so busy with life now that it’s hard to just sit down and enjoy it. I try to make some time every night to just bond with him. On the other hand, I’m feeling guilty about Peyton too. I feel weird that she won’t be the only baby around here. We never expected to get pregnant so soon after she was born so I expected to have more one on one time with her. I’m worried about spending enough quality time with both of them once Wes is actually here. I know she is going to love her baby brother to death. I know I’m giving her a lifelong gift. I just can’t help but feel guilty sometimes. I’m pretty nervous about the transition from one baby to two babies. I know breastfeeding is difficult in the beginning and the exhaustion is REAL. I’m taking any and all tips from you mamas! I am very blessed to be able to have Aaron home for 3-4 weeks this time. I know that’ll help tremendously. We will definitely have a routine by then and I think that is going to help the most. I just want to make sure Peyton doesn’t feel neglected by me or anything when she sees I have to sit down and feed Wes every two hours or so and spend a lot of time with him. It’s gonna be hard at first but I know things will get easier and life is going to be SO sweet ❤

I have my anatomy scan scheduled for next week. I was trying to get in this week but it wasn’t happening 😦 If we didn’t know the sex of the baby already, we would have lost our minds LOL So THAT update will be on the week 22 blog.

How far along? 20 weeks 2 days
Total weight gain/loss? 12 pounds.
Maternity clothes? Yes
Stretch marks? No
Sleep? Pretty decent
Miss anything? Nothing in particular
Movement? Yes! Mostly throughout the night. 
Food cravings? I honestly never know what I want anymore lol Poor Aaron
Anything making you queasy or sick? No
Showing yet? Yes
Gender guesses? It’s a BOY! ❤
Belly button in or out? Getting kinda flat lol 
Wedding rings on or off? On 
Happy or moody? Depends on the day 😉
Looking forward to? PT tomorrow!

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